Thoughts & Reflections

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The Light Within

Adversity, struggle, complexity is by virtue a part of our lives. Human psychology functions on a very fundamental principle.  Our basic ambition in life is to do what is perceived to be a landmark that very few of fellow beings have achieved. This desire to better our compatriots is what tends to define our existence, purpose in life.

Any such achievement requires prowess better than what others have been able to cultivate in their lives within almost the same set of conditions, opportunities and difficulties.  A thought comes into my mind time and again – what are these champions made up of - entrepreneurs,  nobel laureates, research scientists, social activists etc. etc. Is it an inherent “super-ability”, exceptional mental & physical faculties, a mixture of genius and great luck, optimistic mindfulness , pure desire to struggle and emerge victories etc. In a gist, it has to be an amalgamation of all the above factors to be better than the rest and achieve your own ambitions.

However, a common characteristic of all those is a burning desire to prove oneself through a continuous struggle against oneself. There are phases in one’s life, wherein even with the same set capabilities one feels powerless and yet at times one feels that all the problems can be overcome. The underlying observation about human psychology is the passion within.

Often, it is this desire that brings in other factors essential for success – the love for your work, clarity in your own ambitions, definition to your life, unimaginable power to face tough situations, explorative ideas, expertise etc. etc.  I believe it is this one particular inherent quality that can set your life on a ride so exciting that it might be difficult to de-addict oneself from it. To be an achiever one has to be a believer first, and to believe you need the craving within to break those pessimistic barriers that mar your vision. 

A lack of faith, interest, desire to excel deflates a person’s of his abilities leaving in him searching aimlessly. One gets caught in a trap of presuming it is his environment that is not conditioned adequately for his success.  This is a kind of circle of failure where in the effect turns to amplify the cause itself. What is easier to understand is that the paths that one selects must have his inner self’s pure belief.

There is different kind of sweetness even in the failures of a path that you have chosen for your own self. Such a journey is a lot more enlightening and explorative than those trodden ones that already millions have found ends to. It is that light within that finally shows you the pits on the road ahead. The ecstasy of living your own passions is what drives winners through tough times, inspires them to overcome their own beliefs, look into corners none has ventured into and rise to those super human capabilities which are often ridiculed at by realists and critics. Life is intricate, and human psychology is ever so more complex.

There is a light within each one of us, a light that can guide us to something never achieved before, to a destination that was incomprehensible to others. It is this guiding force that a majority of us seem so reluctant to find, not because it is hard to but for the reason that once we find it, it would be hard to give up on that inner craving once we realize it. It is this journey of self realization that we fear to struggle for and instead learn to live happily within a cocoon of our presumptuous security and safety. It is not the darkness that we fear but the light that might trigger new passions overthrowing our journey and jeopardizing our sweet little beliefs that we never question. What if this is was not the journey that was our true destination ? What if there was a path better for us ? It is  thoughts like these segregate leaders from followers. It is that light within, that desire within that leads one into unchartered territories breaking barriers both within and without.

Love – the elixir of life

And sometimes in love, lie desires obscured,
From the world, as the heart yearns, uncured.
Ah, there in rests the secret, the elixir of life,
Of passionate existence, victories in every strife.

And some realize that with its sweetness,
Others, feel the pain, of perpetual sourness.
Ah, that feeling sinks in, of sentiments so dear,
And emotions jumble, blurred and yet so clear.

The rain

Hark, the tinkling drops, festive mirth,
Experience, the blessing, of joy’s birth.
Behold, the drizzle, the dancing rain,
Liberate, your soul, of scorching pain.

Mother’s Day

A day that brings back innumerable memories.
And, those years of childhood, rejuvenate,
Ever so loving, ever so beautiful, her love,
A precious gift, nature’s most pleasant present. 

She was the hand, you learnt walking with,
She was the lap, you learnt sitting upright upon.
She was the happiness, you were showered with,
She was the motivation, you faced all the challenges with. 

She was the kindness, that filled with you with compassion,
She was the strength, that instilled in you life’s passion.
She brought forth the virtues, the morals within,
She was the cornerstone of your success, victories.

 And now, as time moves by, as she grows old,
She feels meek, before her kids, she once mould.
Hardly expecting anything, but a little care.
A little consideration, a little time to share.


There is a sadness within, a sense of guilt,
Of having never paid her back, with love.
What she made out of little kid today,
As, the heart fills with gratitude, for her.

Happy Mother’s Day 

 

 

 

Smile of acceptance

In solitude, restlessly lies a soul,
In remembrance of a dear one.
So close, once, and yet so far,
And now lonely, left with none.

Ever so unhappy, unyielding,
Trying in vain, to comprehend.
What life had in store, battling,
With a smile of acceptance.

Dreamy by the day, sleepless by night,
Lonely in a crowd, friendless with comrades.
Lost in transition between acceptance & denial,
Disillusioned, in love, in a reluctant surrender.

Sweetened thoughts, soured memories,
Confounded paths, a future so hazy.
What could have been, what is to be,
The differences, ripping off the heart within.

A lot of lessons, did the soul learn,
Yet could not fend off the separation.
A regret, a grief it carries heavily,
The essence of love, it had to realize.

Ever so moving, forth and back,
And yet, caught within timelessness.
Flying back to moments, haunted by,
In vain trying to hide from love within.

That soul will find another mate, 
Another sweet little loving friend.
Yet that void would remain,
A special place within, none could take.

Dream

Aha, a beautiful morning to wake up,
The dream that went by.
Oh, could I like turn it to reality ?
If only those powers were within me.

That beautiful lady, alone and drenched,
In the sorrow of what was not to be.
Pained by what she could not fathom,
In regret, and yet ever so unrelenting.

Why dreams mimic aspirations ?
And reality, those hidden apprehensions ?
Why dreams are sweetly brittle ?
And reality sorely bricky ?

Oh the lady, got lost, in,
My thoughts, dreams or reality,
Am I confounded by her presence,
Or does her absence lose me ?

There is a sweetness, in that dream,
As I revisit those experiences,
Moments that reality could never take away,
From the memories that I still hold close.

Of hormonal battles

Each phase of your life has different set of goals and objectives. Early 20s is an altogether different experience. You finish off your college and enter the professional world. It is the phase when you start looking into the future not only from a career driven perspective but also the social and emotional aspects of your life. One of the most evident concerns amongst guys stems from the latter. The surprising part of the whole game is that no matter how varied people are in their social, economic or cultural set up – the concerns are pretty similar. One does not have to be a rocket scientist to figure out the fact that yes, a lot of young people think about interactions with the other half of humanity.

Over the past few weeks, I have had a chance to meet a large number of old school mates and yet surprisingly the question “Bandi mili kya? ” kind of pops up everytime the chats get a bit directionless. And suddenly all your accomplishments (all those super earning jobs, your grad school admits, your college achievements etc. etc.) become minuscule and it is this one problem that decides your coolness (quite unfair I guess :P ).

The question, although personal, does trigger an empathetic conversation between lonesome mates lost in the myriad depths of a woman’s mind. Yes, these chaps try to figure out the one big unresolved question every youngster (like me) faces – “Arey Milegi kaise ?” and slowly the discussions move from a gentle inquiry to a heated strategic discussion of the careful series of steps that might get you to your dream partner (which of course is pretty useless).

It is kind of amusing listening to engineers talk about girls. A lot of logical deductions rule the conversations and yet by the end of each discussion it becomes evident that understanding that mind is out of the scope of all those algorithmic mindsets. Each man trying his luck in this battle, is like watching a bunch of non-swimmers trying to reach the shore in the mid of a ravaging sea.

Early 20s for some is about learning about the deep philosophies of courtship; understanding the hormonal battles within. It is about hardships of the heart, the heartbreaks and at the same time the unconditional love you can receive and give. A lot of us find their true ones and yet fail to realize that; and a few of us realize that one person and yet cannot find them. A lot many get screwed up, and a few lucky ones get their wishes !!!!! What makes the whole period so exciting is the fact that you might land up with someone really nice in the end.

Of Friendships & Experiences

The last week has been quite an intriguing and full of some very beautiful experiences. They say that “life is lived in moments” and I guess that realization takes time to seep into oneself. Over the years, my approach to life was that of an introvert. Friendship for me had a very different meaning, more of a supplement to life’s experiences than a necessity.

I guess as you start realizing the transitions in life, you start understanding how good friendships and meaningful relationships can really steadfast your life. There would be phases in your life when you ant to live alone and focus on you work, on your career. Yet once in a while there would come a phase when may be you have a sense of fulfilment in what you have done, yet you do not have people to share your life’s happiness with. These are periods in life when friends and your loved ones can magnify the sense e of your fulfilment. A beautiful gift, that nature has presented it with.

Over a period of time, it is those moments that you share with your loved ones which would define your life’s experiences. It then becomes essential to be able to maintain your friendships well. I believe now, that it may require sacrifices, risks and sometimes may cause loses and still it would enrich your life ever more than you ever imagine. Quite often we spent a lot more time analyzing ourselves and yet what we miss acting in a sensible manner. The “fear” of what might happen overwhelms our inner self. It tends to be a binding that we might not be able to let go. This restricts what we could have done and thus a major part of expectations remain buried within those unexpected obstacles that might have never existed.

Introverts have this very basic persistent struggle in life of failing to emote. Their experiences are tied within. Expression of oneself is one of the most essential desirable characteristics that an individual can possess. Lack of it diminishes and can even becloud our life’s understanding straining our relationships. An open person, on the hindsight, has the advantage of clarity. Clarity that gives a better vision and more flexibility in understanding those with you.

Yes, this trip taught me to open up a little more, to try out a little more and to spend time out there where people are a little more. There is a lot more in store within the riches of one’s friends than any most of our personal achievements. And hopefully, when they reciprocate the joy you feel gets augmented beyond any bounds.

Remembrances Made

And time flies by, as memories fade,
A thought persists, of remembrances made.
As feelings emote, unsettling within,
Flustering , agitating & sometimes calming.

Oh, how I try to control, the self,
Oh, why do I control, the self.
There is a happiness within, a pain within,
Of remnants of our rendezvous, & interactions.

And then I look ahead, to the life ahead,
Thoughts appear journey’s perturbations.
Devations into the past, into the realm,
The realm of sadness, I can never let go.

Of altruism, perspective & compassion

Every weekend we plan a movie which is followed by a dinner that makes up for a wonderful get-together. This sort of has become a wonderful routine for us friends. This weekend we did a very simple act – which brings one to think upon the way we spend our precious resources.

So, after the movie, as we moved to a restaurant, a young boy (approximately 11 years of age), in a dilapidated condition came up to us begging for money. He seemed pretty afraid of us. A friend of mine called him up, asked why he wanted any money. He answered back saying he was hungry. He handed the boy a packed bag of dosa-sambhar, with a water bottle and the boy seemed pretty gratified with us. The look on his face was very satisfying for us too.

He told us that he had lost his parents, when he was young. He studies in some government school and usually takes his lunch there. He has no way of getting any dinner and therefore, has to beg for money to get his dinner.

It brings us to the very basic question that I have pondered over ever since I started earning and living independently i.e. are we justified (ethically) in living a luxurious life (in comparison to that poor boy)?The whole argument is why do we not give a thought about the problems that such citizens of our nation face. We keep crying and cringing about the petty problems that hinder our progress. We cry about the lack of comfort, the dearth of relationships in our lives, the lack of excess money, of poor quality food, of not working on cutting edge technology etc. etc. Yet, we tend to be ignorant of the common day problems of such poor people living amongst us. We tend to ignore our basic humane qualities of compassion and love towards them.

We tend to spend excessively on our essentials, our source of entertainment in life. At times, I ponder, if we ever give a little more thought to the way we spend our own money, we might be able to support or even feed one such hungry soul. Yet, we, the most educated people of our nation, tend to focus more on our small, narrow minded vision of the world.

There seems to be a lack of awareness and willingness within people (including me) in trying  go out of their way and make someone happy. We have a notion of hoarding money that creates wealth and yet no adds a minimalistic contribution to our society.  We tend to believe that it is the bank account balance that is the final measurement of our worth; a notion that really has objective aim to it.

Altruism is a non-gratifying goal for a large percentage of people. It involves self-denial, abnegation of one’s desires in order to part away with some of the pleasures one could create for one self. One tends to pursue happiness from a very self-ridden perspective. As long as the domain of one’s contribution is confined to the realm of him/herself the value proposition of one’s contribution remains less effective. Once people start propagating some essentials from their lives and dedicate it to others, we would start witnessing a change within the way wealth is distributed amongst the society.

Our society condemns altruism in a manner by not promoting it. Our social conditioning forces us to be restrictive in the way we plan our resource expenditure. There is an excessive emphasis laid on personal development. There in we lay constraints on ourselves and tend to believe that may be supporting another’s development might be an unnecessary burden especially if the other one may not be able to help us back in return. We tend to undermine our powers and the effectiveness of the impact we might be able to create. We might be able to understand the strength of collective efforts; yet the realization does not easily dawn up on us.

May be one day when we sit down and feel the pain, suffering & frustration that these helpless souls have to go through on a daily basis. As I sit down to write this blog post (after a delicious dinner) I am not even sure whether that boy went hungry or even sleep less tonight. This is the kind of thoughts that make me shudder at times. Those packages, salaries, grades seem to be ghosts that fettered our thoughts. Yes, they are important; however, there are other very grave problems that our society faces. Material seems meaningless when you cannot satisfy your stomach. And yet, when you can help some hungry soul go to bed peacefully with a filled tummy, there is a calmness that fills in your conscience; a feeling that is way more than any salary hike, promotion or level of self achievement might be able to.

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